thoughts from a journey

January 21, 2011 | Filed Under Random 

I am now sat on a bus on my way to the airport and, bless this country, it has free wi-fi. The future is here and it is glorious. Too bad I’m on my way back to a country where they think 0.5Mbit internet is completely acceptable. I have said goodbye to everyone and being a person who hates goodbyes more than most things in life, I can’t help but wonder if this is what my life will be like now. I’m inevitably going to run back and forth between two countries for the next two and half years, at least, probably more, and eventually I guess I’ll settle down somewhere and finally get all my books collected together in one place again. And then what? Then I will have people in all kinds of places I miss and goodbyes will be even more long-term and even more heartbreaking. And if you’re a pathological pessimist like I am, it’s not such a stretch to think that life is just one long row of goodbyes, hopefully with some good times in between. I guess the goodbyes wouldn’t be as bad if you weren’t leaving good times behind, so that’s at least a good thing. Better a broken heart than an untried one. I’m guessing the passengers on this bus are at least 95% Swedish. You can tell by the way that noone sits next to anyone else. Some have even gone to the trouble of sitting on the aisle seat with their bag on the window seat, to clearly signal that they’re on their own and don’t you dare try and occupy their personal space. I’m not complaining, I’m like that too, but I think it says loads about us as a people. Stereotyping: I can haz it. I have over an hour left on this bus and then I have an hour or so in the airport and two and half hours on a plane, and then hopefully not too long a wait until I manage to secure some transport back to the town where I live, and then around two hours on a train or a bus or whatever I can manage. And then finally a 20minute trek uphill with more luggage than I care to think about. I have to try really hard to remember how much I love the journey, not just the destination.

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